Letting Go

I have been learning so many things about myself lately. I feel like I've really been growing as a person which is good for my kids too cause hopefully I won't be stupid anymore! :) So here is a list of some of the things I've figured out:

1. I should not try to grow things. After my post from a couple of weeks ago about my tomato plants I have to admit that they are dying. I don't know if they are over watered, under watered, not getting enough sun or just don't like me but they are shriveling up as I write this. So sad. It's a good thing we have grocery stores, cause if my family had to rely on me to grow our food, we'd all die of starvation!!
2. I do not need to be in control of everything that happens. Really! I don't!! It was a difficult conclusion that took years for me to make but it's true. And I don't have to always have a plan. Crazy, I know. But it's true.
3. Sometimes you have to do what you think is best for your family - even if no one else agrees with you. It doesn't always feel good but if you're going to feel like a terrible person either way, then you may as well be doing the right thing. And if other people don't like it - too bad!! Until they have walked in your shoes they don't know what they would do or how they would act so their opinions are just that - opinions - and everyone's got one and they don't have to be the same as yours and you don't have to take them personally or adopt them at all.

So, I'm letting go. It wasn't easy getting here and it won't be easy going forward but I'm just going to let go...

Morning Surprise

I am not a gardener, by any means. In fact, whatever the opposite of a green thumb is, that's what I have. I haven't tried to grow anything for a long time but then The Bear went into Girl Scouts and learned about plants (she's also been "gardening" with my mom most of her life) and how to take care of them. For Mother's Day the Troop (plus The Monkey who wasn't really in the Troop) potted Petunias and Marigolds a couple of weeks early and brought them home. The Bear did such a great job taking care of the flowers that I thought maybe the green thumb gene had just skipped a generation and decided to actually buy plants on our annual Mother's Day trip to the Garden Store. I bought two super sweet tomato plants and later Hubby got a Rosemary bush. We planted, and watered, and pruned, and got fungus, and removed fungus, and watered some more. Then The Monkey and The Bear left for Cali and I had to take care of things myself (qeue ominous music). I went out the other day to walk the dog and was surprised to see that I had flowers on my tomato plants! That means that I didn't kill them and one day they will be fruitful! I am so pleased with myself right now. Every time I go outside, I see my little tomato flowers and I smile. I just HAD to share!!